Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I was a Mom Today…

I was a Mom Today…

I was a mom today to a child who lost theirs...
I was a mom today for I loved them...
I was a mom today for I felt their fears...
I was a mom today for I held the ones that cried small tears...
I was a mom today when a child recognized me...
I was a mom today when I held her small hand...
I was a mom today when they came crying to me...
I was a mom today when their tears they tried to hide...
I was a mom today when I played in their home...
I was a mom today when they learned from me...
I was a mom today when they came running with pride...
I was a mom today when I cradled them in my arms...
I was a mom today because a child let me in...
I was a mom today because I saw hope begin...


I was a Child today…

I was a child today for I was loved...
I was a child today for I shared their fear...
I was a child today for I was held while tears fell...
I was a child today when I held hands and played...
I was a child today when my tears I tried to hide...
I was a child today when together we cried...
I was a child today when I shared in their home...
I was a child today when I ran to them with pride...
I was a child to today when I learned from them...
I was a child today when they held me in their arms...
I was a child today because a child let me in...
I was a child today because I hoped their hope would begin.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Home again home again gigity gig….


Well, I’m back from Africa and had a God-blessed-broken-friend-filled experience.

I want to share all the moments and experiences with you but I think as the Lord lays them on my heart I will write about them. The first thing I want to tell you about is the three other women on the trip who had such a great impact on my life.

My first roommate on the trip Emilie Miller- lover of God passionate for children- her beautiful smile and giving spirit enlightened me as we bonded and shared moments of sadness, poverty, sickness, love, laughter, sleepiness, sleep talking and walking, support, encouraging conversations, and a surreal understanding of God’s aching desire to use us to love and reach His lost children.

My second Roommate Erika Carew- this bright and courageous woman took my breath away as she embraced every child she came in contact with. Her continuous desire and perseverance throughout the trip to love and serve any baby, child, teen or adult was an inspiration to watch. The moments I was able to talk with her I found her to be insightful, resourceful, and have a deep heart for orphans.

My third roommate Kate Borders- a woman of extreme talents and overflowing love for anyone she meets. From the emails to the on-the-field encounters I felt her heart and it drove me to persevere, to seek out, and to push forward. Courageous and caring Kate was my daily role model of how to live a life of service and selflessness.

The verse that comes to mind if I were asked to sum up my experience with these women of God is this:

Matthew 25:35-45 (NIV) For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

Each of these women fed me-

Whether it was Emilie sharing her massive amount of goodies(cookies, power bar, candy etc.), Kate giving me a drink of water from her water bottle or soda, or Erika offering me skittles each of these women fed me on a daily basis. From Seeing Emilie in the morning and at night with an open bible in front of her, bent over as if trying to dive into the bible and see everything first hand, to Erika who expressed and showed God’s love by her actions and sweet words and food for thought, and Kate with her knowledge of the word and it overflowing from her mouth even when a bible was not close at hand. I was fed both spiritually and physically.

Each one of these women helped me when I was sick-

From Kate readily giving me hand sanitizer, Advil, Tylenol, from her magical purse that seemed to have everything, to Emilie who offered sleeping pills when I couldn’t sleep (or maybe so I would sleep deep enough so not to freak her out by talking or walking in my sleep), and from Erika who offered stomach relief medication when I was nauseous or spraying my mosquito nets at night. Each one even made sure my nets were properly tucked in at night.

They clothed me quite literally-

When some of my clothes disappeared after our first guest house we stayed at Emilie- offered me a t-shirt, Kate-lent me her skirt and Erika- lent me flip flops. Between the three of them I had a perfect MATCHING even, outfit! How great is God!

I felt so privileged to have them take part in my baptism. Emilie having the camera eye took the fantastic pictures, Kate and Erika help shield me as I was changing in and out of my dry and wet clothes and all three offered me hugs and encouragement throughout the whole trip.

God is so good to put people in my life that build me up, and inspire and encourage me to carry on! Throughout the trip these girls not only served the children, the church and the community but they served me and words cannot explain how humbled, touched, and encouraged by their selfless acts of love and kindness. Thank you and bless you ladies, from the bottom of my heart.

"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

To Be Continued….

Thursday, August 28, 2008

We need the orphan as much as the orphan needs us



Ok, I must admit, this was a very difficult assignment for me to write. I can usually whip through a writing assignment with ease and confidence. Like with any other assignment I prayed for the right words to say, that they would be worthy enough for God to hear, and eloquently said so others could be inspired. BUT, the right words never came. I actually wrote 4 different times about 4 totally different views and each time I was told “It really just doesn’t answer the question.” You must ask yourself “What need can an orphan fulfill that nothing or no one else can?” I thought to myself “Great, not only am I one of the newbie’s in a Orphan driven organization now I can’t write about an orphan!?” I spent long moments in prayer and meditation asking for the words to come. Then as He always does the Lord spoke to me. I’ve learned its best to listen, so I listened and I believe I am in the process of finding out why I need the orphan. I know they are my passion and I wait in anticipation to see what the Lord is going to do with me and how I will be able to help them. But how do I need them? I know that because the Lord has commanded it and in desiring to be like Jesus we must take up the cross follow in His footsteps and heed His commands. One of those commands is to “Defend the cause of the weak and fatherless; maintain the rights of the poor and oppressed. Rescue the weak and needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked. (Psalm 82:3-4-NIV) In all of God’s commands there are blessings when obeyed. So many times we, in our one track selfish thinking, come to the conclusion that God’s commands are a burden when in reality they are meant to protect, direct, and bless us.
This Poem is my small and humble expression on why I feel, within my journey so far, “We need the orphan as much as the orphan needs us”.




Only then will you see the greatest gift I have given thee- to love and love those who need Me.

Respond to my calling to aid the ones I love and as you do they will love you too. Reach beyond what you know and the wisdom you shall find as you seek to serve with Me in mind.

Play, pray, be patient with them and you shall find, healing within and a heart divine.

How I will complete you as you help complete them. How you will find you need them. How you will learn you are a part of my plan.

Always know they need you as you need them- for you to show them that I am God, The Father, Protector, and Strength. For you, to see my great wonders, to seek, and to learn to be like Me.

Never lose sight. I have given you this gift because where they are weak, I have made you strong. When they scream out in silence I made you to be an exalting, shouting, voice. I made you for them…and in serving them you will have more of me.

-Jenna M. Howard